Friday, October 24, 2008
I had moved my blog to:
http://worshipping-you-jc.blogspot.com/
Thursday, October 23, 2008
This is the same person....LoL....one of my best buddy since young.Her name is watermelon.
诗篇 第十三篇
1（大卫的诗，交与伶长。）耶和华阿，你忘记我要到几时呢？要到永远吗？你掩面不顾我要到几时呢？
2我心里筹算，终日愁苦，要到几时呢？我的仇敌升高压制我，要到几时呢？
3耶和华我的神阿，求你看顾我，应允我，使我眼目光明，免得我沉睡至死。
4免得我的仇敌说，我胜了他。免得我的敌人在我摇动的时候喜乐。
5但我倚靠你的慈爱。我的心因你的救恩快乐。
6我要向耶和华歌唱，因他用厚恩待我。
Psalms chapter 13
1
2How long is my soul to be in doubt, with sorrow in my heart all the day? how long will he who is against me be given power over me?
3Let my voice come before you, and give me an answer, O Lord my God; let your light be shining on me, so that the sleep of death may not overtake me;
4And he who is against me may not say, I have overcome him; and those who are troubling me may not be glad when I am moved.
5But I have had faith in your mercy; my heart will be glad in your salvation.
6I will make a song to the Lord, because he has given me my reward.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Well,I really wish I can just explain clearly and openly the reason behind....but then....HOLD ON !!! I am not going to do so...why ? Cos I don't wanna hurt those friends who are still there....cos I am sure this will somehow affect them...they are not that strong to accept this kind of fact.I don't want my friend feel hurt,sad of foolish to stay there.
I knw many of you wish I can just explain to you so that you can understand ...but...I think is better if you donno anything bout it.
What I had learn in this few years was,you need to be someone who are perfect in their eyes all the time.If you are not perfect,then don't think about it.Well,does God also think in this way ?
I pray,none of my friend will experience what I had experienced.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Take this offering that I bring
Humbly I fall on my knees
To proclaim You're everything
My life's nothing without You
Take my hand and lead me through
You are my sustaining love
I live to worship You
I live to worship You
Here I am worshiping You
With all I am worshiping You
Bowing down in spirit and truth
With lifted hands worshiping You
We're not ashamed of You
We're not ashamed of You
We're not ashamed of You
whoa
I'm gonna worship You forever
I'm gonna worship You
Sunday, October 19, 2008
This was what I brough for myself...to encourage myself a little bit...I stick it just in front of the driving seat....meaning I will able to look at it whenever I drive.LoL ! It will shack the head whenever the car move..something like tat...and that will make me laugh...seriously,I laugh...and it makes me feel good...and I also shack my head a little bit.LoL ! I am crazy ~
Well,last night I had a great night with all of them.Great that the surprise birthday party was successed...no "chon bao"....although I am the one to lie her a little bit...but I guess she will not angry at me.haha...
Happy birthday to my dear ivy...a very dear friend of mine.Though we seldom meet nowaday,but she is always my precious friend....who I can share and share all the time.I pray,Daddy will continue to guide her,specially in her health,family,work and spiritual life.Amen!
Feel touched that KY actually smsed me and invited me...well,I wish to go...but there is no way for me....I kinda hate this kind of life now...but...what to do? I can only be patient and see what will happen next...thanks for all the encouragement from her...awesome friend of mine.Hugs ~
Was not feeling well right now,Pray that I gonna be fine real soon.Daddy will take control.Amen !
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Am now in C-M foor court......there is prob with my home comp....in order to catch up CHC service...I bring laptop...and online here. LoL ~
Yesterday.....after so long...i took the 1st step to visit....well,all I can say is......it's different....it's not the same....I guess I can't find anything that is same with the previous one...
I thank God for aunty kitty....who willing to be my friend...who willing to help me and pray for me...who din't give up on me...who treat me as a normal human.THANK YOU !!!
I pray,God will provide me a church,a cg.....and friends.....everything need to start from the beginning...it's quite hard and hurt...yet...I put my trust in God.
So,what I learn today through pastor kong's sermon is:
Heart works on 4 levels:
1) Thinking
2) Visions & Dreams
3) Faith
4) Speaking
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
The God I Know
Words and music by KC Gan
When the stage is bare tonight
There's no one else
Just You and me
When the curtains close behind
There's no pretense
I'm on my knees
I will lay down my all
For there's no greater cause
Than You my Lord
It's all because of You
It's all because of You
The God I know
Glorious and holy
The God I know
Is faithful and true
The God I know
A tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed
The God I know
Light of this city
The God I know
Strengthens the weak
The God I know
Is strong and mighty
As He is, so are we
Holy Holy
Is our God
Is our God
The church He knows
Glorious and holy
The church He knows
Is faithful and true
The church He knows
A tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed
The church He knows
Light of this city
The church He knows
Strengthens the weak
The church He knows
Is strong and mighty
As He is, so are we
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
我好怀念少年时的那种生活....好怀念当时一班的好朋友...好怀念一起在少年团成长的日子...更怀念一起事奉神的日子.
我不会忘记这些曾经陪伴我成长的朋友....他们是我的朋友,也是主里的兄弟姐妹.
神啊,我爱他们,我祝福他们,神保佑他们!
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Revelation 21:4
And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes;
there shall be no more death,nor sorrow nor crying.
There shall be no more pain,for the former things have passed away.
Get this verse twice today.I think,it's something important that I need to knw bout.Thank God for this verse.
Touched...thanks a lot,ty.
I love this song so much !
Friday, October 10, 2008
紧紧抓住 - 赞美之泉 [G.L.O.W系列之1]
我无助的时候 祢给我力量
我害怕的时候 祢紧紧抱住我
当我觉得我不行 祢告诉我可以
祢就是那最爱我的主
我紧紧抓住祢 我永远不放手
我看到你独生子 为我钉死在十架上
我紧紧抓住祢 我永远不放手
是祢医治了我 是祢从未离开过我
I found that...I am improving each day now...I pray,this will not stop...but become a better person each day.
Thanks for those people that hurt me so deep....at least...give me a chance to stand up again and put my trust in God again...at least...I love Him more and more each day.
There is a song that stuck in my mind right now...I still remember last few weeks,when I sing that song...I really sing it from my heart...and I did ask myself...do I really love God...can I become a vessel that God can use ? Can I stand up strong ?
Here goes the song lyric in chinese and english version :
差遣我-赞美之泉 [G.L.O.W系列之1]
主告诉我如何献上我的生命
带希望入人群中
主告诉我如何付出我的关怀
将温暖带入世界
我看到灵魂中的忧伤
孤独中人的心在角落颤抖
差遣我 差遣我
我愿付出我所有
差遣我到需要你的人群中
充满我 充满我
用你爱来充满我
再一次紧握他们的手
差遣我（英）-赞美之泉 [G.L.O.W系列之1]
Tell me oh Lord how you want me to give your life
To the world where there’s no hope
Tell me oh Lord how you want me to give your love
To the world where love went cold
Do you see all the people sinking down
Don’t you see people aching in the darkness alone
Send me Lord send me
Lord I am willing to give all
Send me out to those who need Your hand
Fill me Lord fill me Lord fill me with your love for all
Reach your hand to hold them once again
Took this around 12pm just now.Awesome......God is awesome !!!
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Tracks:
1. The Greatness Of You
2. Hail To The King
3. Mighty To Save
4. Thank God
5. Be Glorified
6. Be Lifed Up
7. I Believe There Is More
8. Be Praised
9. Great Is Your Mercy
10.O God Of Abraham
11.Painter Of The Sky
12.Grace Is Enough
The 1st Don Moen's album that I fully listen to....it's nice....I am learning to listen more type of music.....I love the way he sing and how he flow together with his team.
Great !
Just get an info from a blog.
Congrats to both of them.I guess they just started not too long ago.Am happy for them.Maybe cos I knw both of them....so feel happier than usual.
I pray,God will guide them.
I pray,they will love God and each other.
I pray,they will serve God together.
Amen !
I can't wait to meet them !
我说你行，你就行；
我说你不行，你说你行，你还是行；
你说你不行，我说你行，你还是不行；
我说你行，你说你不行，你还是不行；
神说你行, 你就 100% 行 !
After I wrote this to her last night....I laughed.....I never knw that I will able to write such thing.LoL !
I pray,she will be fine.
I pray,she will be strong.
I pray,she will be happy.
Amen !
Happy birthday,Tao Bing gege !!!
Am blessed to have a friend like you.Thanks a lot.
Just a short entry here.
chao ~
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨 跌倒了就不敢继续往前走 为什么人要这么的脆弱 堕落 请你打开电视看看 多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去 我们是不是该知足 珍惜一切 就算没有拥有 还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随着稻香河流继续奔跑 微微笑 小时候的梦我知道 不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑乡间的歌谣永远的依靠 童年的纸飞机 现在终于飞回我手里 所谓的那快乐 赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了 谁在偷笑呢 我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了哦 哦 午后吉他在虫鸣中更清脆哦 哦 阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎 珍惜一切 就算没有拥有 还记得你说家是唯一的城堡
随着稻香河流继续奔跑
微微笑 小时候的梦我知道 不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑
乡间的歌谣永远的依靠 回家吧 回到最初的美好 不要这么容易就想放弃 就像我说的 追不到的梦想 换个梦不就得了 为自己的人生鲜艳上色 先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色 笑一个吧 功成名就不是目的 让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义 童年的纸飞机 现在终于飞回我手里
I love this song very much.It's very nice !
Sorry,I am just not ready to face you all....I just wanna disappear from you all...Yes,I don't even know how to face you all...
I am sorry....those I din't keep in touch with...means that...I am not ready to face you.Please don't try to find me or anything.
This wound is too deep.....I need time to get heal.
I admit,after that decision...kinda hard for me to continue my walk....but...I din't regret to make such a decision...indeed,I should make this decision earlier...so that I no need to suffer for such a long period.
I feel much better with such a life now...though there is no one beside me...but...at least,I don't need to face that kind of people anymore.
Finally,I understand what it means by "Freedom"
想念她,没有她的消息好一阵子了...不知道她的生活过得怎样?不知道她现在在那里?不知道她在忙些什么?
我有好多好多事情要告诉她.好怀念之前的那一段日子.
神,求你保佑她 !
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
I am improving...thou really slow...but...still...I am improving !!!
Deleted some people in my facebook...will delete some people from my msn contact as soon as possible....guess need faith to do so also....this is my 1st step...to let go of them in my life...so that I can start a brand new life here.
Yes,I am still angry with them...yes,I am....I am just human...I need time to let go of all the hurts from them....they are the one that makes me scare to commit myself again...they make me scare to open up myself...but...I gonna learn...not to let them take control of me.....I can overcome all this by His strength,AMEN !!!
I can't wait to meet all my friends from SG soon...I believe this trip...I will learn a lot of new thing....or even my life been transform....Yes,I truely believe so....I don't think God simply giv me a chance to join Asia Conference...there must be a great purpose behind...I believe so...
God,I gonna fully put my trust in you in this trip....cos You gave me this chance to go.....
Thank you,Lord !
Saturday, October 4, 2008
says: says: says: says: says: pauline says:
important to go church
to get connected with God
ppl oways disappoint us
but God is oways there
hope u dont get too hurt to stay away from God
says:
Jesus loves us
says:
it's the ppl that is teruk
says:
dont let these get into ur heart
says:
it is ok to be angry
says:
just dont let ur heart become bitter
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says:
remember the lady who wash feet of jesus?
says:
the bottle of perfume
says:
has to be broken for the frangrance to come out
says:
broken means painful oh
says:
but when broken
says:
the aroma will come out
says:
and it gave fragrance to Jesus
says:
so dont b afraid of the pain
says:
sometimes we dont understand
says:
why hav to suffer
says:
ask oso no answer
says:
but i believe better to focus on wat good can come out of it
says:
i know tat God can use tis situation to mould u into a better person
pauline says:
i believe so
says:
i pray the fruit that come out will be a sweet and not a bitter one
says:
fruit of the spirit..
can i ask ? why you tell me all this ?
pauline says:
cos you seldom type tat much to me...and i jz wanna knw ba
says:
i read ur blog
says:
and i just dont want to see young ppl get discourage
says:
and may b leave God for good
says:
you all are the future
says:
we nid to help u grow
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says:
the word of God bring life
says:
u will b surprised. He speaks in many ways
says:
just b open
Thanks a lot................................thanks !
Friday, October 3, 2008
I tot...He forget me already...I tot...He don't want me already......
Today,the 1st time...after quite a long period...I experienced Him.
Last night...while chatting with TY...she asked me wanna join Asia conference 2008 SG or not...the 1st thing in my mind was....I don't have money....but then,I gv myself a chance...and started to check the price for air ticket....I did that few months ago...and the $ really shocked me.
Something amazing when I check on the price...I saw a promotion price....and I tried to search for the nett amount...shocked me...it's RM 300....which can consider cheap dy.
Then I actually told myself...why don't just make a decision to go...and believe something great will happen? Thou I knw I hav not much cash on hand now...but then...by faith...I told myself to book it this early morning.
At 1st,I though I am gonna go alone...well...I never try to travel alone...but then I told myself...If really travel alone...I still gonna make it....
I told a close friend of mine...that I wanna join Asia Conference...and we chit chat a lot bout it...I din't expect she wanna go also...but then...at the end...she book the ticket as well...weeeeeeee!!!
At 1st,mum and bro kinda worry if I go alone...but then...now this problem solve.
Then I think bout the place to stay...which will cost me a lot...but then...I remember what TY told me before...she offer her house for me to stay...for a week...and now...she offer her house for both of us to stay for a week...weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
Then...I ask her to help me to register for the conference and the electives...cos was rushing works...she helped me with that....thanks a lot.
After that...I was thinking how to go in from JB to SG...as a friend told me...from airport to bus stop quite far...and quite dangerous for 2 gal.....but then...I know...all problems gonna solve.
Joe,my friend from CHC,he stay at JB....offer himself to fetch us from airport to bus stop...so touched....cos I knw quite far for him also...I thank God for him....he also offer us to stay a night...the day before back to kk...and he offer us his room...and he will sleep at the living room for a night......I am so blessed and touched.
Now...for the $ side...well...I still don't have any yet....but then...I will still make it....and I really expect something great to happen.
God will make a way.
Also,Happy birthday,my dear kyun ! Hugs ~
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Selamat Hari Raya.....also Happy birthday,tine tine ! Hugs ~
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
My cousin,Brenniel is now 8 years old !!! Glad that I able to celebrate his birthday with him.He is my youngest cousin which I love him so much.Yes,love him so much!
Uncle brough this cake for him~
He is cute ~
Love the way they pose ~
Happy birthday~ 
Smile ~
I love this photo the most !
My younger cousin,Brandon ~
Brenniel ,me & Brian ~
Me & three of them !
Some of the food I had recently...nice !
Ha gao....my favorite ~
Shui jiao...
Shiu mai~
Nuo mai kai ~
Jin Gai~
I donno the name...but I love this one....
Took this photo...jz to show CM how "Ta Lap" look like...the one beside durian ~
Nasi Goreng @ the hut ~
Forget the name ~ from the hut as well...
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
I don't care how much you know,I know how much you care !
Those who really care for me...somehow...I knw who are them
Those who not really care....I knw who they are
Those who don't care at all...I also knw who they are
I will learn to cut off some of them in my life....they are not building my life but they are just destroying my life...so don't get close to those people.I rather be alone than spent my time with them.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Yesterday was the 1st sunday I need to went through alone.Though it's really like shit...but I think after some time,I will somehow get use to all this.
I wonder,why some people think that they are always right? I wonder,why they never think for others ? I have no comment.
Now,I start to treasure the "few" friend that left in my life....yes,I guess I can easily count them all...cos only few of them...even if I need to list all of them out,a small piece of paper is more than enough for me.
I am glad that,none of them ask me bout it...even they ask,I guess I will not explain that clear...unless those close one.I guess this will be better for me...at least,I don't need to face them.I don't need to tell the truth...cos sometimes,the truth hurts.Let me alone bear all this.Don't let others think that they are wrong.Let me think that I am wrong then is enough...cos some people will never think that they are wrong...so I rather to blame on myself cos they will never think that they are wrong.
Well,I have see thing clear now.I knw what does it mean by family,friends now.
For now,I totally regret for that big and important decision I made few years ago.If I have another chance,I will not make such a decision years ago.I regret ! Totally regret !
Paupau,all this is "life" .... hurts are just normal in this world...closer one will hurts me more...those important one will get to hurt me easier.I am hurt...I feel hurt...Yes,I am hurt...but then,so what ? people will not really care bout you hurt or not...they will just forget bout you and have their own life.That's life.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Some of my very close friend,feel sad and disappointed with my decision....some can't even understand why I make such a stupid decision.
1st of all,I am sorry to make such a decision.I am sorry cos din't inform & explain it clear.I am sorry to make some of my close friend worry.Well,all I can say,I also donno that will be my last time...I also donno that I will have no chance again....I also donno I will make such a decision.
I don't have any other choice beside this choice.Well,if I have a choice,I guess this is not what I wish at this moment.Well,I force myself to do so...so that others will feel better.How about me?I donno....but as long as others happy...then is ok,suffer alone is much more better than involve people.
If you ask me,what is my next plan...well,I don't have any idea at all...it's kinda like lost everything...and this kind of life is very unhealthy and pain....what else can I expect? I not dare to expect anything anymore...all I can do is,face all this with God alone.
Disappointed from many things and people become so real to me.I just tell myself again and again...don't blame them...cos they are right...they never wrong.Even they are wrong,I also have to tell myself that they are right.
I hate sunday now!
Seriously,if you ask me,are we still friend? I have dfrent answer to dfrent one.
Friday, September 26, 2008
我自己滾。。。 says:
如果是神要給你的 他會製造那條路引導你跟著
✞ ポーリン , pauline says:
ya
我自己滾。。。 says:
他需要你去其它需要神的地方幫它做事
✞ ポーリン , pauline says:
ya
我自己滾。。。 says:
剛剛吃飯禱告
✞ ポーリン , pauline says:
then ?
我自己滾。。。 says:
就很有感動
我自己滾。。。 says:
講出來的
我自己滾。。。 says:
那個感覺很清處
我自己滾。。。 says:
對
我自己滾。。。 says:
就是這樣
我自己滾。。。 says:
很清處
我自己滾。。。 says:
眼淚快滴下來了 不知道為什麼
我自己滾。。。 says:
我沒聽到聲音
我自己滾。。。 says:
可是那句話浮現的很清楚
✞ ポーリン , pauline says:
对，是圣灵
我自己滾。。。 says:
就連飯還沒吃
我自己滾。。。 says:
先跟你說
我自己滾。。。 says:
講完心理舒服點
我自己滾。。。 says:
我剛剛要謝飯禱告
我自己滾。。。 says:
但是心情很亂
我自己滾。。。 says:
也不知到要禱告啥
我自己滾。。。 says:
所以就為你禱告
✞ ポーリン , pauline says:
thanks
我自己滾。。。 says:
然後就一個很深的感動
我自己滾。。。 says:
跳出來
✞ ポーリン , pauline says:
thanks...
✞ ポーリン , pauline says:
thanks for praying for me...i need it so much
我自己滾。。。 says:
嗯
我自己滾。。。 says:
說不定你將來是去其他教會服事呢
✞ ポーリン , pauline says:
ya...i believe so
Thursday, September 25, 2008
静雯，
谢谢你在我最需要朋友的时候陪伴我。谢谢你在我最低潮的时候鼓励我。谢谢你没有放弃我。
透过这图片，好想告诉你，我们要像图片里的车，这么硬，即使整个倒过都还能撑的住。
我祷告，你会有好的成绩。你的努力，我很佩服 。
希望你会好好照顾身体，别累坏了哦 ！ 要不然，我会心痛哦！
加油吧！ 一起努力！
I am no longer belong to my previous church starts from today.Yes,this is my decision.
If you think you are my close friend,can try to ask me.Maybe I will let you know the reason.If you are not my close friend,don't try to ask me or anyone else.
This is not an easy decision...but I feel great that I make such a hard decision.
I will never forget 24/9/2008,the day I totally break down and lost.
I will never forget what had happened and those who involve all this while.
I am who I am cos of you!
For my close friends...I knw I let you guys worry and sad...please don't cry or sad,but bless me...and I would like to say sorry to you all.
To all those who think they are my close friend yet they are not...please don't so gepo...don't ask me too much...cos I will not tell you anything also.
To those who not really know me that well,Sorry,you need to knw me better before you can judge me or say anything.
God bless !
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
只要点击照片,就可看得清楚了.Also,please view this
主祢能力何其的伟大
在祢眼没有任何限制
虽然我看到的是不可能的现实
在祢却没有难成的事
当我感到软弱无助，
祢能力显得完全
我要全心的相信，祢神迹如此真实
不是自己倚靠势力，乃是倚靠祢的灵
我向祢全心祈祷，祢神迹如此真实
神迹确实靠近，在你这运行
而我要凭信心的生命
Monday, September 22, 2008
I saw you yesterday as you began your daily chores.
You awoke without kneeling to pray. As a matter of fact, you didn't even bless your meals, or pray before going to bed last night.
You are so unthankful, I like that about you.
I cannot tell you how glad I am that you have not changed your way of living, Fool, you are mine.
Remember, you and I have been going steady for years, and I still don't love you yet.
As a matter of fact, I hate you, because I hate God.
He kicked me out of heaven, and I'm going to use you as long as possible to pay him back.
You see, Fool, GOD LOVES YOU and HE has great plans in store for you
But you have yielded your life to me, and I'm going to make your life a living hell.
That way, we'll be together twice. This will really hurt God.
Thanks to you, I'm really showing Him who's boss in your life with all of the good times we've had.
We have been...
watching dirty movies,cursing people out,stealing, lying, being hypocritical, fornicating, overeating, telling dirty jokes, gossiping, being judgmental, back stabbing people, disrespecting adults, and those in leadership positions, no respect for the Church, bad attitudes.
SURELY you don't want to give all this up.
Come on, Fool, let's burn together forever. I've got some hot plans for us. This is just a letter of appreciation from me to you.
I'd like to say 'THANKS' for letting me use you for most of your foolish life.
You are so gullible, I laugh at you. When you are tempted to sin, you give in
HA HA HA, you make me sick.
Sin is beginning to take its toll on your life. You look 20 years older, and now, I need new blood.
So go ahead and teach some children how to sin.
All you have to do is smoke, get drunk or drink while under-aged, cheat, gamble, gossip, fornicate, and live being as selfish as possible.
Do all of this in the presence of children and they will do it too. Kids are like that.
Well, Fool, I have to let you go for now. I'll be back in a couple of seconds to tempt you again. If you were smart, you would run somewhere, confess your sins, and live for God with what little bit of life that you have left.
It's not my nature to warn anyone, but to be your age and still sinning, it's becoming a bit ridiculous. Don't get me wrong, I still hate you.
IT'S JUST THAT YOU'D MAKE A BETTER FOOL FOR CHRIST.
P.S. If you love me, you won't share this
I get this from richard's blog...just wanna share tis to everyone.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
I am feeling emo right now....
seriously,who can just give me a hug ?
That's all I need.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Racheal,a good friend of mine.I thank God for this friend...willing to be my friend even in my down time.Willing to try her best to be there for me,listen to me & comfort me.
She is a friend that I will appreciate for sure in my life.I will always remember the days we spent together.Yes,I will remember.
Am looking forward for nex year,our trip to SG.Alhough I not sure both us can make it or not,but...I gonna try my best...!!!
Thanks,Racheal for everything you've done for me! Hugs !
Friday, September 19, 2008
More photos will be upload soon ! 
My leng chai cousin...
Ivy & me...
K-dad,K-mum & me ~ 
Er ge,jie & me...
Ang pao !!! 
Sis & me...
